Word of warning right off the beginning: this is a personal log and retrospective so be wary of sombre and unhappy tone it might take. I will start by saying the quiet part out loud: 2025 has been the polar opposite of great year, I'll go as far as to say it was the worst one out of all 30 years of my life so far - and I do not use those word lightly. There was always this feeling in my bones, that year 2025 would somehow be significant one. I never knew in what way or how, but I had just a feeling, a premonition that this one in particular would yield some things... and it did. Few of them good. Most of them bad. I'm not going to disclose everything because some of them are extremely personal but I think it's worth to take a sideways glance...